My underwear was on the floor across the room. Rapecounseling is a reddit forum dedicated to providing an open forum only for survivors and victims of sexualized violence across the spectrum Five years ago was the first time my dad molested me He stopped two years ago, but i still deal with side effects of it. For the next couple of years, at our home in chard, somerset, my memories were hazy and fragmented But at six, my nightmare began again
Dad regularly sexually abused and raped me, usually. As i grew up, my dad, my 3 sister and my mom, would call me fat I felt they called me fat all the time, and in different ways, song, poems, and simply by laughing at me. In march 2019, i reported my dad for his sexual abuse This time, i was determined to make sure. For years, connor parker kept a dark secret
It left connor, 25, feeling isolated and extremely stressed, he says Now, with his abuser behind. I think he’s desensitized me to a lot of things, like rape and sexual objectification, and make me think certain behaviors are normal He’s never gone farther then what i’ve described in other messages, and i don’t know if he ever intends to which is scary. A few months later, i was folding laundry when dad approached me “you’re so sexy,” he said, running his hands through my hair
I tried to fight him off, but it was no use They make me second guess my decision to speak out about my sexual assault, and they make me feel crazy for not just letting it go like they wanted me to But for every ugly thing they spat at me this past year, i have a thousand positive things people have said to me to fall back on. My dad started raping me when i was pretty young, and it went on for years He always made me feel special and loved while he did it, and would say he couldn't help himself because i was so beautiful and he loved me so much.
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